a new day

it's hard.

but i'm trying

i am, i promise

i am really really trying

i think i can fix it

i believe it

so i guess that means i know it

thinking and knowing are two different things

knowing is belief

right?

or is belief just blind faith?

whatever it is, i have it.

it's a pretty day outside

maybe i will take my daughter out to play

she likes the grass and her shadow on the ground

or maybe i will read her every book she owns

she loves books.

i will hold my son when he cries

and make him giggle his baby dinosaur laugh

and i will take a nap with both of them

in my room full of light and soft pillows

this day can be heaven

i think

i believe

i know

faith for me

sweet baby boy

i love you
i'm sorry
i love you
i'm sorry
i love you
i'm sorry
i love you

for the rest of my life i'll carry this night in my heart
so dark